Just When I Feel Like I'm Drowning

I am going to be honest. There have been moments in these past couple of months when I felt like I was drowning. Every time, just as I felt like I was about to drown, I was pulled out by the miracles in life.

These past months have tested me in all different ways. My marriage was tested. My husband went from constantly working to constantly being home. He was depressed. His attitude rubbed off on me. We fought more than we had fought in the last 12 years of our relationship. This "ideal" marriage I had was falling apart. Just when I felt like I was drowning, the tides turned. We stopped to look at each other. We had conversations that we hadn't been forced to have in the past. We loved each other. We gained a new appreciation for each other and the fact that we were forced to figure it out made our marriage stronger than it has ever been. We were drowning and our love pulled us out.

My body was tested. I was pregnant again. I lost the baby again. How could this happen? How could my body fail me? I caused this because I was too stressed. Just when I felt like I was about to drown, I looked at my kids. My 2 amazing, beautiful, healthy kids were smiling back at me. How could I feel bad? My heart was sitting across the table looking at me and I couldn't thank God enough for blessing me with them. I was drowning and my babies pulled me out.

My finances were tested. Ever since I became a stay-at-home mom, we have never had a steady income but we always had an income. All of a sudden it's gone. My husband's job completely erased. No sign of reopening any time soon. How would I pay my bills? How would I put Ty in the school I signed him up for in the fall? We couldn't afford it. Just when I felt like I was drowning... Unemployment was approved, an unexpected donation from a friend, a letter in the mail "Congratulations Tyler you have qualified for a scholarship." I was drowning and signs from the Universe pulled me out.

My faith was tested. I couldn't understand why all of this was happening. Why was it all happening at once? In a few short months my life had flipped upside-down . Just when I felt like I was drowning, my family was there. They were there to remind me that I am never alone. They were there to listen and help me whenever and however they could. I was drowning and my family lifted me up.

So please, next time you feel like you're drowning, let the miracles in life pull you out. Nothing is worth drowning over.