FEAR

NOUN: An unpleasant feeling triggered by the perception of danger, real or imagined.

Fear is a thief. I realize fear robs me of many things.

I fear not being a good enough mother. I fear that I am not going to teach them what they have to learn. Am I sheltering them too much? Am I giving them too much freedom? Am I feeding them the right foods? Is it hurting them to sleep in my room? Should I leave them in their room? Am I teaching them enough while letting them play enough? Will they be ready for the constantly changing world around them? Fear creeps into my thoughts and I wonder am I a good enough mother?

I fear not being a good enough wife. Will I continue to grow and know what he needs when years have turned into decades? Will he understand me as I change from girl, to woman, to mother? I fear that things won't stay the same when, the truth is, things are meant to change. We are meant to grow together. Fear creeps in and I wonder am I a good enough wife?

I fear dreaming too big. My blog. My jewelry line. My children's books. Are too many dreams a bad thing? Am I shooting to high only to fall? Fear stops me a lot when it comes to dreams. It is scary to put yourself out there and tell everyone what your goals are because what if you fail? Everyone will know. So I stop. I stop and wonder if I should do it at all. Should I try and fail or just not try at all? Fear creeps in and makes me wonder if my dreams are beyond my reach.

As a mother it robs me of moments that are gone too fast because I am questioning if I am making the right choice. As a wife it robs me of making future memories because I am comparing them to our past. As a dreamer it robs me of dreams because I am scared I am shooting too high.

Today I say f*$@k fear! I am done worrying and wondering. You know what the good thing about making mistakes is? You learn. You grow. Why do I fear when the worst thing that could happen is learning and having to try again. I ask anyone that is reading this to LET GO! I read a quote that says "When fear comes knocking at your door, send faith to answer" I choose faith over fear. I choose to know that fear is only an "unpleasant feeling" as stated in the definition and feelings can be overcome.

I am an amazing mother. I am an amazing wife. I make my dreams a reality. Speak it. Feel it. Make it true.